Dawnings
The window of fear
By Nicholas Hooper
At the top of a turret, up many winding stairs,
in a small room with hard, hard stone walls,
is the window of fear.
Every second its message says,
‘Look! Don’t look! Look! Don’t look!’
and if you look you see the world in the most frightening light
but if you don’t look it’s even worse as you imagine how bad things could be.
You hope for something to come down onto this turret, this room,
and dissolve the hard, hard stone,
and so it does, but you are left with this window dangling in mid-air saying,
‘Look! Don’t look! Look! Don’t look!’
You turn your face to the window and, in the light of the sun shining down,
you see your face reflected in its glass.
You’re looking scared so you try a smile, just a small one, and behind you,
you see another face, a bigger face just like yours
with a warmer smile, so warm indeed,
that the window begins to dissolve and disappears,
leaving a wide open world for you to see.
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About Dawnings:
“Every morning at around 5am I get up and go down to my studio. After a short meditation I write down whatever is in my head, giving myself fifteen minutes to do so. Then moving over to the piano (or a more portable instrument like my Ukulele when I'm away), I improvise and record a piece of music inspired by whatever words I just wrote. It is a great way of keeping both my writing and my composing going and I call these small creations Dawnings. They are mostly unedited, like sketches, so that they keep that fresh feeling of an early morning discovery.”
— Nick Hooper