About to

By Nicholas Hooper

About to stop, now.
About to say the truth.
About to find a way
to tell a friend
this is the end.

About to say goodbye
to the impossible.
About to leave behind
the improbable.
About to wonder
has this all been
a terrible mistake?

What can I learn here?
Where does this take me?
Inside I am a man
with changing powers,
with new horizons,
with calls on my life
that I never had before.

About to be kind to myself.
About to recognise my needs.
About to forgive myself
for what? though, for what?

I have tried and
I have tried but
it never rings true
except the friendship
still comes through
and rests there, so

remember what
it all means to you.



About Dawnings:
“Every morning at around 5am I get up and go down to my studio. After a short meditation I write down whatever is in my head, giving myself fifteen minutes to do so. Then moving over to the piano (or a more portable instrument like my Ukulele when I'm away), I improvise and record a piece of music inspired by whatever words I just wrote. It is a great way of keeping both my writing and my composing going and I call these small creations Dawnings. They are mostly unedited, like sketches, so that they keep that fresh feeling of an early morning discovery.”

— Nick Hooper